Look At Me Now!

My daughter turned 31 years old yesterday, which I find hard to believe since I was 31 myself not too long ago. When I think back to where I was 31 years ago, I see a very different version of myself. I was at my heaviest weight and I didn’t know a kilometer from a mile. I had been in my 220’s when I was pregnant with her and I only managed to gain a few pounds during those nine months because my obstetrician scared the be-jeezies out of me about gaining weight and having a baby’s birth weight be in the double digits. I did incorporate some healthier habits during that time such as eating healthier meals and walking everyday and doing prenatal aerobics classes twice a week but I realize now that I was only doing all of those things because I had to be accountable to the scale every visit and worry about how big the baby would be. 31 years ago today, I was recovering from a C-section and trying to figure out how to breast feed and make sure I had taped her diaper on just right. I watched the live news reports of the Oklahoma City bombing and held my newborn close to me, feeling thankful and blessed.

As it turned out, my daughter weighed six pounds, ten ounces and I managed to drop about thirty pounds in the months after she was born. I tried to watch what I ate but I didn’t continue with those aerobics classes (even though I would go on to have four more children within the next seven years!) and I wasn’t much of a regular walker. The idea of running or being active wasn’t in my headspace for a good long while as I got caught up with motherhood.

I look back at myself 31 years ago and I want to say to that version of myself that you won’t be this way forever. You may not be ready right now to take on running or working with a personal trainer and you might not even want to make any changes but when it’s the right time, you will know it and you will take those steps towards prioritizing yourself and when you do, you will thrive!

A Different Kind Of 10k

Two weeks ago today, I was supposed to participate in the Jerusalem Marathon 10k. I had followed Jeff’s training plan and I was physically and mentally ready for it but then it was postponed. The new date doesn’t work with my schedule so I chose to defer my registration for next year.

I did run a 10k two weeks ago and I made it as close to a race experience as possible. I made a bib to pin to my shirt. I had my family waiting for me when I came upstairs after my run, congratulating me on getting it done and applauding my time – 1:03:26. Once I came down from the excitement later that afternoon, I wrote here how I didn’t have anything specific to train for and I was fine with that. I have a trail race in late July but for the time being, I wanted to just enjoy going out for runs and getting back to a little more spinning and lifting in my virtual training sessions.

So this morning, Gary forwarded an email to me about the Jerusalem night run that is happening in July. Okay…On a date when I will be here. Okay…I have never done a night run but whenever I have seen photos posted on Facebook or Instagram, I think to myself, ‘that looks like so much fun.’ So without so much as a moment’s hesitation, I signed up for the 10k. Some of my kids said we can do it together and I am actually pretty excited about this. I wouldn’t mind having something of a training plan to follow to help me build up my endurance and dare I say…speed…but a night run and a night run with my kids surrounding me, seems like the type of thing that I want to savor as an experience rather than a race. A different course. A different kind of feel in the weather and the darker surroundings. A different kind of 10k. But I say, let’s do it!

Can You Start Running In Your 30’s, 40’s, and 50’s?

An IG friend of mine posted that question and I answered an enthusiastic YES.

As an adult, I had wished I could run. The twenty and thirty and early forty something version of myself would look out the window and see people running on the streets of our neighborhood or pass them by while driving and I wished I could do what they were doing. But I didn’t think I could. I worried about so many things and there were so many reason I made up as to why I shouldn’t or couldn’t run. It’s funny…of the many reasons why I felt it was too impossible or too hard, I didn’t think I was too old…I just assumed I couldn’t or shouldn’t.

In sharing that ‘impossible’ wish with Jeff to run and then his oh so gently adding running bursts to my walking workouts, I found myself thinking that I wasn’t all that bad at running. Granted, I had never run a complete mile and I still couldn’t see myself actually taking off the emergency strap clip from my shirt and getting off the treadmill to try this thing called running anywhere else! I was 46 years old when I tried that thing called running and I soon found myself running three or four miles through my neighborhood and turning into that person I had been looking out the window at.

As I responded to my IG friend, ‘the window is never closed.’ I wish I had started running sooner but I wasn’t in a place in my 30’s and early 40’s to truly appreciate what it would give me. I’m grateful at 57 to be able to do what I do. It’s never too late to start. You’re never too old. Nothing is truly impossible.

10K – Check!

The day had come. My clothes were laid out and I had the bib I had made for myself, all set up with the pins and I was wide awake well before I felt like I needed to be at the gym. Losing an hour of sleep thanks to daylight savings time didn’t seem to affect me as I am usually up around 5ish but I figured I’d wait until closer to 7 to get started. It’s funny…I’m usually all nerves before a race. I am usually in a porta potty, standing in a porta potty line, coming out of a porta potty or looking for a porta potty in the hours before a race. But today, I was fine. And I tried my best to treat this a a race, as Jeff had suggested.

There was no one in the gym when I started out but Gary was awake when I was heading out and he wished me luck. I spent a few minutes warming up and doing the various stretches we did in yesterday’s training session and I took a few pictures. I really tried to treat it as a race…

I got started and immediately got into a pace I consider pretty steady and easy to maintain. I used a different treadmill than the one I’ve been using in my training since this one has a fan and it also has a virtual run to follow, which made the time go by a little faster or so I thought. I did listen to Jeff and taped a piece of paper over the pace and time markers so I wouldn’t get caught up in the numbers but by the time I had gotten bored from the virtual paths, I was at two miles.

I had four miles left…so I did what I could. I moved my way around, increasing the pace but not quite sure what it was exactly and I had no idea of the time, which was actually great for me mentally. I knew where I was distance wise but I ran as fast as I could manage and held back a bit when I felt I needed to. I was feeling a bit depleted just before I was getting to mile 5, feeling tired in my legs and doing more of a jog than a run but I knew there was no way I would stop short. That was when I pictured Aliza and I thought of her resilience and her strength and how she managed to be at so many races for her son, as sick as she was. I felt her with me in that moment and told myself I am doing this. I got myself back to that steadier pace and then I sprinted for the last half kilometer. 1:03:26 It was my fastest Jerusalem Marathon 10k (even if this one was virtual) and this one had a whole different meaning. I worked hard in my training and made it work in spite of a few weeks of traveling back and forth and the last few weeks had me doing my runs inside But I made it about something. I made it about something more than myself. And it turned out to be everything I could hope for and more!

One Week To Go

March 27 is getting closer…one week from now, if you want to be specific and then it’s 10k day!

With my three mile run done earlier this morning, I have one more run to go and it’s tapering time. Truth be told, this past week has been something of a taper as well, as my runs on Monday and Wednesday were back to three miles each after last week’s increase in mileage. My training sessions with Jeff this past week have been just as intense but not as focused on the lifting and a little more attentive to mobility and bodyweight strength.

As I go into this last week of training, I am feeling good about where I am headed. This training plan and all of these past several weeks have prepared my body to step on the treadmill next Friday and run the 10k distance, while also preparing me mentally and reminding me that I am not only capable of getting it done but also pushing myself a little harder to get it done beyond anything I could hope for.

A Change In Plans

I won’t be doing the Jerusalem Marathon 10k a week from Friday. The race has been postponed until mid April and the new date falls out at the same time I hope to be celebrating my twin grandchildren’s sixth birthday.

I will be doing my own 10k a week from Friday though. On the treadmill..in the gym…it will look and feel very different from the race experience I would have had if the race was still happening but I am still going for that 10k. I will be doing in memory of my dear friend Aliza Steinberg, who passed away a few months ago and I will also be honoring my mom as it’s her birthday and she has been recovering from a broken ankle and I want this run to send more healing vibes her way.

Am I disappointed about the race being postponed? For sure, yes. I have put in the training and I have worked hard to get myself ready for this race and I was really looking forward to showing up on race day after a three year hiatus. I could very well say to myself that this whole thing with training has been a waste but it was anything but that. Every single one of those runs and training sessions and walks meant something. I needed these last three months to work for something…and work really hard at it….to have something to focus on and make myself accountable. It wasn’t always easy to get the runs and workouts in…especially when I was traveling and especially these days, when an alert or siren can suddenly go off and interrupt my momentum. But I am here today..nine days away from March 27 and I am going to run a 10k and as I wrote earlier, it will look a lot different and it will feel a lot different but it will be just as meaningful and the accomplishment will be just as felt. I might not get a medal when I finish but I know there is a different kind of reward for showing up, for taking those first steps and for pushing until the finish.

A True Endurance Run

This morning, I did the last of my longer distance runs as part of my training plan. A long easy five mile run was what Dr. Jeff ordered and I readied myself up to get it done. I had my clothes laid out. I had a 60 minute endurance run workout from Peloton picked out. I did a bunch of stretches beforehand. My body was ready and my mind was ready.

The funny thing about the Peloton runs when you’re doing them on a different brand of treadmill is that you’re not necessarily in sync, data wise. I start the treadmill a few seconds before I start the workout and there’s always this one minute warmup that doesn’t get included in the workout itself. My watch didn’t start tracking right away and I could see that as I was getting into my run, there was a good quarter of a mile discrepancy that I would want to make up by the end of the run. The run itself was great. I figured that I could get five miles in within the hourlong run but I could move things along according to feel when I wanted to. I love Mariana Fernandez as a running coach and the hour went by pretty quickly. I stuck to the higher end of the pace targets and I just about made it to the full five miles according to the powers that be at Peloton. The treadmill however said something else.

5.37 miles. An hour and a minute and eight seconds. That is including that minute of warmup that didn’t get included in the 60 minute workout on Peloton but hey…I know that I put in the work. Of course, I started to say to myself…you’re already at 8.95 kilometers…maybe you should just go for the full 10 and say you did it. But I didn’t go for more. This run was about endurance and building the stamina to go the distance I was told to go (plus or minus .37 miles!) and getting myself ready to do the actual 10k distance in two weeks. I felt great when I was done…like I could actually go for that 1.05 kilometer but this morning’s run was the longest distance I’ve run in two months and I am celebrating it for what it was.

Another Checkmark On The Training Plan

This morning, I did a four mile all out effort run on the treadmill and it went really well, especially considering that I came up with the workout. A few minutes of warming up and then easing into a nice, moderate pace for my baseline and doing that every two minutes, followed by a 60 second speed burst. Not quite easy peasy lemon squeezey, as Jeff likes to say but it was very doable and it helped me get through the four miles in under forty minutes.

So I checked today off my training calendar and that race day date is getting closer and closer. Two weeks from this Friday. I start to wonder if it will really happen as we are currently experiencing a war and they are keeping crowds to a minimum, whether you’re inside or outside. I don’t know if this 10k is going to happen. I’m thinking that it will probably be pushed off to a later date but knowing my not so great luck with the marathon dates over the last few years, it will probably be postponed to a date when I’m not here.

I told Jeff yesterday that no matter what, I will be running a 10k on Friday, March 27. It might not be on the course that has been designated for the participants and it might be on the treadmill in our apartment complex gym but I am going to run that 10k. I am going to run for my friend, Aliza, who passed away a few months ago and in whose memory I am doing this run. I am going to run because I have been working long and hard in following this plan that Jeff put together to get me race ready. I am going to run because of how far I’ve come with feeling like I want to and I need to, rather than I have to. I could very well not run a 10k on March 27 but I truly want to do it because I can. I could very well not run a 10k on March 27 but I truly need to do it because right now, I need that run to focus on something other than all that is going on right now. There might be a starting line with a horn blowing away for us runners to start or it might be just me, showing up at the treadmill but no matter what, I am going to do this and I will have that checkmark all set with a few exclamation points to mark it!

Was It Trickery Or A Test?

Over the last few weeks, I have been interviewed on a few podcasts to share my fitness and running story and spread the word about my book. One of the questions I have been asked…and I’m sure, I will continue to be asked…is how did I get into running.

As the story goes, I shared a goal with Jeff at our very first meeting in July of 2014 when he asked me what was the one thing I wanted to do fitness wise, if I could. I said I would love to be able to run and then I shared all of the reasons why I couldn’t — I would undoubtedly trip and fall. I would look silly moving around as I run. I would look fat in my clothes. I would get into running and wind up breaking a hip or a knee. That conversation only lasted a few minutes and I never thought much of it but a few months later, I suddenly found myself adding a minute of a jog to my treadmill walking workouts that Jeff had me do as a part of our training session. And after a few months of my doing that and realizing I could run a ten minute mile pace without any issue, I heard those words — you need to sign up for a 5k.

Much of this journey has been about doing things that I thought were too hard or even impossible. Jeff would tell me to do a certain movement or exercise in our training session and I would look at him with wonder and amazement that he would even suggest such a thing. But then I would do that thing and wouldn’t you know it…it wasn’t so hard and it wasn’t so impossible. That first 5k. That first 10k. That first half marathon. The Spartans. Getting back into a swimming pool after decades of sitting on the sidelines. Conquering my fear of heights to run on the trails. I have sometimes said that Jeff tricked me into running or he snuck it in but when I really think about it, I realize that he set it up for me to do because he knew me better than I knew myself and he knew I had it in me to do it. Of course, I will still say he tricked me but it really was more of a test…a way of allowing me to come out of this fear and worry that I had about myself and my ability to accomplish something that was hard but also doable.

Sunday Mobility Day – Let’s Take Two

I’ve been following this great 10k training plan that Jeff wrote up for me to prepare for race day in less than three weeks and I thought I could say that I was following it 100%. I’ve been doing the runs and I’ve been doing the cross training and my virtual training sessions with him have been great. I’ve been pretty good about taking Saturday as my rest day and even when we were traveling, I made it a point to get a workout in, however I could.

This morning, I had finished my five mile easy long run which was on the plan for today and I was checking out the Peloton app to find a 15 minute bodyweight workout to do later for the strength part that is called for on the training plan. For some reason, I decided to take a peak at the calendar and noticed that it said ‘mobility’ and it had said ‘mobility’ on all of the previous Sundays of this periodization plan and it’s on there for the next few Sundays. I had been doing bodyweight strength workouts…and loving it, I might add…but that is a lot different from doing a mobility workout which is meant more for a recovery workout.

I found a whole slew of mobility workouts that I will be able to do over the next few Sundays so that I am doing this plan right but the truth is that I have no regrets about having done it ‘wrong.’ Those bodyweight workouts that I was doing ‘wrong’ were meant to activate the muscles and joints, get stronger without using any dumbbells and build up endurance. It certainly didn’t hurt to do the squats and lunges and core moves but after doing that mobility workouts this morning after a five mile run, I realize just why Jeff wanted me to do it. Mobility workouts help with movement and improves range of motion and while it isn’t as much of a calorie burner as a bodyweight workout, it helps me as a runner with getting rid of the tightness and focuses on the recovery part which is so important.